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Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
1:16 pm	my lumps... Dear friends, The Black Eyed Peas have a new song out on the radio about tits and ass...and they sing about "My lovely lady lumps" and "My hump". At first, I laughed because it's a silly song. Then I got upset...cause the word "lump" is what I had removed from my breast 6 years ago. I had a lump...and it wasn't sexy. So while that song is catchy, I'm not a fan. When you hear that song on MTV or Z100 or in any other mass media, consider that the word lump is not a sexy term...and please don't tell a girl in the street what nice lumps she has. If someone talks about my lumps, they'll get an earfull. I never want to have a lump again. Anyone with a family member who had breast cancer may agree. Thank you for your time. Sabb Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 10th, 2005
1:05 pm	Just in case....I was saying Shane is a bitch in a fun, 'I'll kick your ass' kinda of way. I didn't realize that the humor could be misunderstood until this morning. I'm a bitch, too, in the good way too. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 3rd, 2005
1:49 am	I won't sleep tonight. You Have Ample Boobs! No doubt about it, you have one hell of a rack No matter what you wear, you're a walking boob attack Other girls might get jealous - and say your boobs are fake But you smile knowing their boyfriends are yours to take! What's Good About Your Boobs? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Your Inner Muse is Thalia You are most like this playful muse of comedy. Life is all about laughter to you, and you're a natural comic. You make people laugh until their sides split. And you're always up for some play time! What Muse Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. Men See You As Understated You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well How Do Men See You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 18th, 2005
11:54 pm	My haiku... biatch!!! LiveJournal Haiku! Your name: darknessmd Your haiku: on tour with his band i can pull away and go interview what sucks Username: Created by Grahame (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
1:23 am	killaz You are an assassin. That means you are a proffessional and do your job without mixing any emotions in it. In your life you have probably been hurt many times and have gotten some mental scars. This results in you being distant from people. Though many think that you are evil, you are not. What you really are is a person, trying to forget your pain and past. You are the person who never seems to care and that is why being an assassin fits you good. Atleast, that's what people think. Even if you don't care that much for your victims, you still have the ability to care and to generally feel. It is not lost, just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to not get to noticed, and dress in black or other discrete colours. You don't being in the spotlight and wish people would just leave you alone. But once you do get close to someone you have a hard time letting go and get real down if you loose him/her. Main weapon: Sniper Quote: "The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy" -Jim Rohn Facial expression: Narrowed eyes What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures] brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
3:18 am	AMEN! My body and brain seem to believe sleep is obsolete. I guess I'm just not tired. I always seem to update when I should be well into a deep sleep. My clock is all wrong. I miss my man. Spending time with him is what I work for. I sort of feel like he's with me all the time because I can almost here a joke he'd say or a comment he'd make as if he were sitting next to me at random moments in my day. That's when I wish for him most. Tonight I was on the phone with Repole for over an hour as he poured out any and all frustrations both in the show and personally. It's not easy seeing the downside to your mentor. He's got quite a few issues that I never dreamed I'd see, yet here I am listening to him go on and on about so many things. The hardest part is to not show pity or weakness. He's not telling me things for my benefit, but only to vent. He doesn't need to hear advice or therapy....he just needs a place to release his frustrations so when he gets to work, his mind is clear. It's probably the easiest part of my job, but still very odd. I've been told my new job is to shut up. Repole says what he needs form me now is to be his insurance card. He will give me actor notes for the day...but he wants me to CYA (means Cover Your Ass in backstage theater circles). Basically, I am here to take any and all SM notes...and if the time comes, have the info when NOONE else has it. Repole says I shouldn't even volunteer the info unless he, and only he, asks for it. He said I shouldn't have to talk to anyone except him, and if I have questionhs or problems, just write it down. If we do not get to something eventually, theh I should bring it up to him another time. I also check phone messages, set up publicity and ticket sales, as well as take all tech notes from designers that Shar already has...but may need a back-up someday. That's me. I'm back-up. I'm insurance. I'm instructed to "shut up", which is probably very good for me because I am a little too ambitious and pretty arrogant about my work. It was difficult today especially because I'm not used to so much built up inside of me. This should focus me now. Pajama Game is not my show. It's Shar's show and actor's show. It's totally out of my hands. I'll just be the emergency kit in the corner that, hopefully, noone will have to use. I hope Shar doesn't need my help. I hope all my work goes unnecessary. That means all is well. If I get arrogant and take charge of something, that means someone, somewhere else isn't doing what they are supposed to be doing. So If you all see me oddly quiet, you know all is well. I wish Robb could see me in rehearsals. It's like I'm a different person, not the stage manager meshuganah like in Guys and Dolls. I'm an assistant director now. I'm so quiet and not yelling at anyone, not at all in charge of the time, schedule or conflicts. It's a very different kind of Sabrina in these rehearsals. Can I get an AMEN!!! Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Racing with the Clock (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
2:43 pm	Emsical writes in her last survey: 23. Natural disaster that you fear most? Tidal Wave. Deep water and drowning are up there on my list of Least Desireable Deaths. Therefore: Random survey #98492 Top 10 Least Desireable Deaths 10. heart attack 9. decapitation 8. trampled by a mob 7. shot through the heart (...not Bon Jovi fans out there I guess) 6. during surgery 5. following a rabbit into a hole, and never coming out 4. completely spread internal cancer 3. blow to the head 2. falling off a building 1. driving a car off a bridge Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Monday, March 14th, 2005
1:57 am	random survey #95462 1. Favorite scene in a movie? The schwartz store from Spaceballs 2. Who has the best steaks? bourson street steak at Applebees wins cause it's aspicy 3. Mexican, Chinese or Italian food? Italian has the most cheese 4. An actor that shouldn't be? Orlando Bloom. He should't play the same character in every movie...he's not effective anymore. 5. Favorite town? I love Starrucca, Pennsylvania. 6. Medicine or vitamin used most? I guess medicine. 7. First movie you remember watching at the movies? The Three Amigos. True story. 8. Know any people stuck "in the closet"? Oh lord....Robb and I have met a few in the past couple of years. I wouldn't "out" them though. 9. Best age to be? 27 (no reason) 10. Black & white or color photography? black and white is cooler 11. Favorite year in school? my first year at Queens College...the first time in my life I got dean's list and all A's. I felt proud, but exhausted. The next year I was poor and had to move back home. 12. Favorite continent? I don't know cause I've never left this one. 13. Big party or a couple of close friends? Couple of close friends. When I at a big party (like 300 people) I feel like my presence is pointless. 14. Who is funnier: Will Ferrell or Will Smith? Will Ferrell is funnier now, but Fresh Prince is still funny to this day. So I feel obligated to vote for Will Smith. 15. Favorite guilty pleasure? Robb's bike chain necklace. Don't ask. 16. State of sexuality? what does this mean? Straight? New York? Active? What? 17. If you were dirt poor what would be your last ditch desperate attempt at money? Been there, done that. 18. What are you most proud of? Starting anew after some rough times. 19. What are you most guilty of? Drinking out of the juice jug. Why waste the cup? 20. Did you ever have a monster under your bed or in your closet? hell yeah. my uncle hewie haunts my house. 21. What do you think about kids? i think they are like little people. I know, I used to be one. 22. What movie scared / scares you the most? The Ring. No question. 23. Natural disaster that you fear most? Hurricane...I hate fast, hard wind 24. Friend closest to insanity? Marla is damn crazy...but she seems content with it. 25. Disney World / Land or Universal? universal...Iv'e never been , but it sound up my alley. 26. Which is better: Watch movies in the theatre or at home? Movies in the theatre are more fun and adventurous...but movies at home is sweet too...especially for us old, tired people. 27. Is anything of yours lost of missing right now? Yeah, my money. 28. Most annoying roomate trait one could have? loudness while others are sleeping 29. Any reoccuring dreams? not really. 30. What's one thing a person could do that would completely turn you off regardless of how attractive you think they are? try to crave attention with Loudness. That's a Drew trait that many other people have...like my sister. 31. What makes you cry the most in movies? When an animal dies. I can't take it. 32. Ever fallen for a best friend? no, sorry. 33. What language do you wish you could speak? fucking spanish. Not just spanish..dominican fast-as-hell spanish. then Robb won't have to be a translator at family functions. 34. Food that you don't like, but is usually considered tasty by others? Onions. Take that shit OFF my White Castle Burger, biatch. 35. Favorite cheese? all cheese that isn't green, blue, or purple. 36. Ever been to a rain forest? not...but I would love to. 37. Scariest disease? Flesh-eating. 38. Okay, it's a dumb movie but you love it: Billy Elliott 39. Favorite decade? this is the only one I know 40. Finally, monarchy is replacing our governmental system, who will be king/queen? Ozzy and Sharron. Current Mood: awake Current Music: racing with the clock (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
5:07 pm	i am dark girl img src="http://images.quizilla.com/H/hoplessromantic/1100487369_tanimegirl.jpg" border="0" alt="lonely"> You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't like to be around others and you'd rather be away from here. You have a get away from me look and others find you bitchy and self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a fair but that's ok because that's who you are. Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
2:57 pm	In Jeremoos footsteps, I bring you: Top Ten things my friends and cohorts never knew about me or in most present tense, KNOW about me. 10- I think honesty is the most difficult thing to do on a daily basis. It takes energy to resist the temptation to lie...especially when it's just for fun. 9- I was on my high school varsity volleyball team. In the top drawer of my desk is a copy of an article about my all-aces game in 1996. 8- I have a terrible memory. Short-term, long-term. It's all pretty terrible. 7- I love Harry Connick Jr. Christmas albums. Sue me. 6- I don't have cable in my tower, so I've spent countless hours watching the same old tapes of Seinfeld episodes. I can, and have, acted out entire episodes for my family's amusement. 5- One onion can spoil an entire meal for me. The taste overwhelms my mouth and there's no point in eating anything else because all I'll taste is onion for the rest of the night. 4- I own one pair of sneakers. This drives my mother nuts for some reason. 3- One of my boobs is a little lighter than the other because of a surgery in 1999. No cancer, just a ball of malignancy. 2- In Rimers of Eldritch at QC (which I acted in), I used to cheat my blocking so I could watch Rob in his scenes upstage of me. We rarely spoke to each other, but I had quite a crush during that show. 1- I hate collars on shirts. It feels like it's choking me. I usually cut them off or tug on them until they stretch out. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Sanitarium- Matelicca (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:27 am	follow the link to sponsor sabrina https://www.kintera.org/faf/donorReg/donorPledge.asp?ievent=92100&supId=42448608 Please sponsor me for the AIDSwalk NYC. The money goes to excellent programs that help prevent to spread of the disease as well as educate on safe sex practices that can be both enjoyable and disease-free. I love charity work and the AIDSwalk has been my most successful venture in the past. Please spare a few dollars or borrow from a friend and help someone with AIDS get the assistance they need to survive. I bet you can get a few bucks from people at work or in school who want to add to your donation. Just mention it. Thank you for your time. Much love and sludge- Sabb Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Gin blossoms (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
2:20 am	I want my man. I am tossing and turning in bed thinking about all the ways I need to improve myself. I feel something missing...a hole I'm trying to fill. But when I'm with Robb, nothing feels missing. I don't know if I'll sleep at all tonight. I just wish I could hug him, smell him, rub his soft skin until I doze into a sweet sleep. Instead, I'm all tense and still having discomfort in my feet and neck/shoulders from this weekend. All I need is Robb (and the Beatle's sing "All you need is Robb. Robb. Robb is all you need.") I am enjoying this assistant directing job for one huge reason...I have no homework. Stage managing is so much extra work. Sending reports, checking up on designs, communication and scheduling. Directors have to think about everything. But me...I just answer Repole's questions, take a few notes that I give right back to him, and a few menial jobs like typing and making some phone calls. I don't have to hide my opinions about the show because he actually wants to hear it...yet i don't have to share it with anyone else. I don't get disrespected, nor do I make a splash. I just get to be there and assist without overworking. So while it's not paying too well, I have free time when I leave for the day. I don't know if anyone understands the life of a stage manager outside of rehearsals. For example, after a rehearsal a stage manager must: inform all of next rehearsal, take down notes by director for design team, put away props and such, clean room and lock up, take the trip home where they must type up all of the days notes in a report to send out and await answers to report back to the director. This includes lights, sounds, props, costumes, line changes, actor lateness or absense, posters, postcards, programs, fitting appointments, etc. Then there's always photocopying, CD copying, and in the case of school, homework for regular classes. Do not pity Sharlyn. She'll live. I don't write this for anyone to debate with. I just want to show how RELIEVED I am at my job as the Assistant to the Director. So far I've done a lot for Repole that noone knows about. Today I was at QC for 5 hours straight working on stuff for the show. I dropped of the poster and explained the changes, made the first draft program, investigated key options for the dance studio, typed things for Repole's portfolio and too a few letters for him, made loads of calls about program info and photocopying, made a prop list and then spent a while calling to cancel rehearsal due to snow. And so I do all this trivial work and leave with no homework. No guilt if I don't finish a task because nothing is riding on me. I"m not in charge...I assist. And so far, I am enjoying it. Granted. Aaron complains a lot...he apologizes for it. And Joel is an interestingly quiet presence in the room lately. I wonder what he's pondering. Well, it seems I"ve occupied about an hour of my sleepless night with some happy thoughts of the work I'm doing. Calling Robb now would be inappropriate since he wakes up in 5 hours for a show. If only ANYONE knew how much he does in one day. He's amazing and working his craft. And with performances coming soon, he'll only get more of my support and love. Man, I wish I was near him. I would stroke his hair and kiss his cheek while he sleeps soundly next to me. I would dangle my feet near his...not feeling this empty light blanket on my bed, so cold and lonely reminding me that there is no other warm skin to be found under here. Can't wait to get that blue hoodie back in my bed. My teddy bear just doesn't smell like my man. So what else is new? Dad's having knee surgery next week which will prove to be difficult for the man who loves to do too much. I hope I can relieve some of his distress and perhaps help entertain him while he cannot walk. He likes chess and sci-fi movies....which I also like. We jujst don't sit together and hang. Now, I suppose we will. It won't be so bad...until mom comes in whining. Ummm...my sisters dog ate her income tax papers. And last night he chewed up a leather skirt she loved. Apparently my schmuck-in-law left it out on the bed after she left for work. Serves her right. What else? I've got $100. I need 20 for gas..I've got none. I'll need 50 next week for birth control. That means I have 30 to live on until Pajama Game opens. If I invoice Repole for half of my pay now, I'll get it in two weeks. How in the world can I stretch 30 bucks over 2 weeks? I guess if I only drive locally, I'll save on gas. Bring in food from home, i'll save on food. No concerts until the end of the month. That's 1/3 of my money right there. If Rob can do it, I can do it. I should try to think about something not stressful. What would help me sleep? Visualization? Daydreaming? A falling anvil perhaps? OK,,,journal is long enough. This just proves how active my brain is at 3am when I'm not with my better half. I wish he was here. I'd be so calm and quiet, so relaxed and giggly. That's all I ask for. Current Mood: restless (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
12:59 am	Amazing weekend. Friday I attended rehearsal from 12-4pm. Then went to Rob's house to prep for the evening. Out we drove to Purple Haze for an evening of music. The night started greatly with Sinaria whom we both really liked. Then Engine went on. We both could have done without the one hour set-up, and the music wasn't really our style, but we appreciated the music and stage time as best as we could. Our wonderful friend Paul from BP was kind enough to offer to buy us drinks which made us feel so at home in this strange long island town. Robb had a beer, I had juice of course. Then Shadowgate went on which was awesome. Their whole band was crazy and the singer was great on stage. That was a great set. Then we got our Borgo Pass t-shirts (2 free, and I bought another one of Paul for $5). I was glowing...smile from ear to ear. Jimmy made my day when he walked over and tossed me a small BP-t. They are working on girlie shirts...but I couldn't be happier. Robb put his shirt on right away. the our boys went on and we went nuts. It should be noted that we though they'd be on at 11:00pm...but it was more like 1:00am when they got up there. I love it cause those wee-hour concerts are so much fun...but the kids from earlier in the evening miss all the good stuff. They played Acedown, Rid Myself of You, I've Been Down, Sweet Leaf and a bunch of other good shit that had me jumping around like I had A.D.D. That'[s where the neck cramp began. Saturday I had an awful wedding that turned out to be a little more fun than I anticipated. It went on way too long, but at least I didn't have to sit anywhere near my family. The band was actually good, and my cousin's assistant was nice to sit next to, cause she didn't know a single person there. We got along swell. Then it was the day to end all days. The day i've looked foward to for months. The day I broke my back. It was...Slipknot concert. I picked Robb up at work and we drove to New Jersey for the first time. We got a great parking spot by the gate and I changed my clothes in the car. We had to remove all chains and shit because of the tight security. I'm just glad they let us back to the car instead of Robb losing another wallet chain like he did at Ozzfest. Then we walked in and found out we had VIP General admission...which means not only were we in the pit...but we were in the front of the pit. We got a beautiful spot at the front gate by secuirt on the right side like we always get in NYC. I was very happy. We even moved a little more center as the night went on. First was the gispacho band. Gizmachi? Whatever they were called, they were pretty hardcore. It was nice to see someone we didn't know...but American Headcharge would have been nice too. Then Shadows Fall came out which was decent...but not the best live show I've seen. The space was just too big and the stage was too far from the crowd due to security. But the music still rocked, and it was cool to see them live. Crazy hair! Then the best band...Lamb of God. I couldn't have had a better time if I imagined it all. It was like a dream. I could hardly keep still during the whole set. The security even passed us Randy's set list which was damn cool. I was so blown away, it's hard to describe on words. And finally, Fucking SLIPKNOT! I don't know any words that could sum up the show they put on. It was like nothing I've ever seen before. it was a circus nightmare with amazing metal sounds, like from another world. Every single guy in that band belongs there, and it wouldn't be the same without any of them. They are the ultimate culmination of insanity and sanity. I'm not sure what happened, but Robb and I were smack dab in the middle of craziness. So my back is way out. I have been in discomfort all weekend, but when I woke up today it all hit me. From the bottom of my feet to the top of my torso,, plus my ears, everything is fucked up. and I can't can't the music out of my head. Somewhere between Borgo Pass, Lamb of God and Slipknot, i've lost the ability to think clearly without music playing in the background. The scary thing is that I'm getting used to it, so it's starting to feel normal. Anyway, tomorrow is a huge day. I planned an entire day of work for the boss I personally assist...but I forgot I have a real job interview at 1pm tomorrow in manhattan. i don't know how I'll work it out or if I"ll make it. But i've set my alarm for 8am, and will work as much as possible in the morning in hopes that I can pull away and go interview. What sucks is that I have to wear interview clothes all day...even if I don't get to go. I could always reschedule. I do have their number. But that's not a good way to say "I want the job". So goodnight. And good healing. Current Mood: sore Current Music: Laid to Rest- Lamb of God (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
12:52 am	~*~*~*~ LOVING~*~*~*~ Your loving nature makes you wonderful to be around. You are the type of person that accepts people for who they are and they in return of your good heartedness, accept you right back. You are most likely a romantic at heart. With a sensitive soul and probably a broken heart from the past, you don't usually trust people. You have probably been hurt by someone you love or loved dearly which makes it hard to confide in others. Easy going and romantic, fun and lovable, you have a great personality. You are very well liked in the general world that you're in. You're Beautiful...but why? ( PICS) brought to you by Quizilla src="http://images.quizilla.com/A/alexissexy/1109566097_sleepingpuppies.jpg" border="0" alt="Sleeping puppies"> Your a sleepy puppy. What type of puppy r u? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
12:14 am	obviously bored at home during a snow storm You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets. </td> Unipolar Depression 67% Borderline Personality Disorder 42% Antisocial Personality Disorder 33% Eating Disorders 33% Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder 17% Schizophrenia 17% Which mental disorder do you have? created with QuizFarm.com You scored as Sorta. Congratulations, Myspace hasn't taken over your life.. yet </td> Rarely 50% Sorta 50% Just There 45% Entirely 25% Anti 15% How Addicted to Myspace are you? created with QuizFarm.com -Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: awake (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
11:49 pm	Ahh. Jeremy. You give others the strength to be honest and let out frustrations. For this, I thank you. Time for another Jeremy inspired list. Ten Things that PISS ME OFF: 10- Working on a show that feels lifeless 9- Actors complaining and a turd AD who won't speak to me 8- Friends who call once a year 7- Feeling sleepy after a full night's rest...will I ever recover? 6- My sister- just as she is. 5- Money- you can't eat it, wear it or live in it. It's just paper and metal. 4- Actors who don't wear deodorant. Febreeze only helps so much. 3- TV...there is nothing on worth watching at all, ever. 2- dentists. case closed. 1- My mother- just being 'herself' in other news, come see the einhorn show. it's good from the audience persepctive, so I've been told. Going to Slipknot/Lamb of God/Shadows Fall in March. BORGO FUCKING PASS has become something of a hobby for me. It's nice to have something random to care about, especially when I share it with my love. I'm so glad to be a part of something locally...while acting glo-ba-ly...hehehe. Current Mood: sore Current Music: Alive- Pearl Jam (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 16th, 2005
10:58 pm	silly silly girl Jealousy. That's what girlfriends do. It only took me 3 years. This week...I had one of the most difficult days in the past three years. It was like a car accident. I let go of the wheel and crashed hard. I forgot that I don't have to hold a wheel to be steered down the right path. Rob and I are in it together...and for a brief moment, I felt alone on the road. I believe we have had our first fight. We didn't fight in person...I don't know if we could be that angry looking at each other. The phone allowed us to get our feelings and thoughts out. When we met face to face to talk, I cried my heart out. We communicated. and we laughed about it. I feel awakened. I feel refreshed and confident. I feel the pain I caused in my insecurity. This is new for us. It doesn't feel good to be that scared. But I feel a hurdle that we jumped together. I don't feel alone. I'm not scared now. I actually feel more confident in us. It makes me want to jog around the park and eat healthy...it makes me want to have sex all day and night...it makes me want to give Rob all the kisses I have, and kindly receive his in return. We had a surprisingly simple event that brought up some issues...and I'm sure I'll get the "look" of disapointment from Rob until summer, or for the rest of my life. But in the end, I'm kind of glad we had this emerge and heal. It was not fun, but we got through it. as Rob so kindly put it, "That's what girlfriends do." so....unintentionally...i did it. To end, a quote from Helen Gallagher: "I observe. Observation made me safe." Current Mood: thankful Current Music: Disposable Teens- MM (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 6th, 2005
9:38 pm	Stupid moment of the day: Taking press release photos for my new show. While posing for a group photo, and trying to capture the emotions of the play, the following exchange happened: Photographer; "Helen, what are you doing?" Helen; "Nothing." Photographer; "Well, do it stronger." I laughed a little. Then I laughed a lot. It's all so....methody. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
11:02 am	Fruity Pebbles is like crack. It's very addictive. I'm ready to go back to sleep. I feel like I'm still recovering from new years eve. Maybe going back to work will fix it. Einhorn is a little pushy. She bossy like my mother. She "suggests" things, and when I tell her that's not how I prefer to do things, she insists I just do it her way, even if it doesn't impact her at all. I appreciate her suggestions, but I wish she would have a little more faith in my choices. Oh well. She is the boss. I'd like to exercise. I feel weak and flabby. Actually sometimes I feel snuggly and squishy. It depends on my mood. A day without Robb is like a day without chocolate. I can get by okay, still thinking about it. But I'm not truely happy until I have it again. And it makes me feel soooo good. I love you sweetness. SICKS DEEP! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
3:27 pm	I'm sitting at my computer in my living room with my sweetie sleeping soundly on the cloud couch. It's nice to get work done in a quiet environment without my mother yelling or dad stomping around. I'm just hangin out in my pajamas doing some pre-production work for my next project that starts tomorrow. I have to tape down the ground plan for the first time in about a year. It's sooooo nice to be working on a regular, normal play again. The best is that because the actors are all equity....even though I'm not...it means there is never going to be overtime or make me overworked. One of the funny things I discovered in looking over the budget is that I'm getting paid more than the director. She calls it a mission of love. In my mind, if the director believes in the play so much that she takes a paycut, than it must be worth the time and effort on my part. I have spare time to hang out, work other jobs, or just live a little. Unfortunately right now I don't have a job set for after February. But I may get something at Westchester Broadway Theater from a contact through Repole. He gets me so much extra work and i've met a lot of talented people. It was great fun having company over last night. We played lots of games and ate warm chocolate chip cookies. Lots of laughs. "We have the most balls!" "It could be worse. You could have all your coins and a star stolen in one turn." I wish my folks were calm and cool. I wish I could have people all more often. It's a little bit of a shame that they don't like company. On the other hand, it's their house and their choice. I just have to live with it for now. I burned perogies today, and Rob ate them anyway. It must be love :-) Well, time to wake up Rob and do more laundry for free. (Comment on this)